Please, pour a cup of coffee and make yourself at home. Here’s the backstory…
Earlier this year, I decided I wanted to start writing more intentionally. There are a few reasons for this:
- I speak regularly and want a chance to write about the topics I speak on.
- I like to encourage people – especially Kingdom-minded creatives. I felt a blog would be a good venue for this.
- I wanted a new challenge. Something I could do to fuel my own growth and creativity.
I’ve had other blogs before, but they mostly dissolved into random posts without any real purpose or direction. So, I wanted to make sure I did this one right. This has turned into months of deep thought and prayer…
I did my homework.
I read some books.
I checked my motives.
I chose a direction.
I had a friend take some sweet photos.
I decided on a blog platform and a web host.
I poked around at my design.
I got all of the right plugins and digital accessories.
Just recently, I noticed it’s been nearly six months since I’ve been working on this. I came to the painful realization that what I have been calling the hard work of “tweaking” has actually been glorified verbiage for stalling.
That’s right. I’ve been stalling. Why? Because truth be told – I’m scared.
I’ve told myself, “I’m just taking my time”, but subconsciously I’ve been thinking…
What if no one reads this?
What if I write about things that aren’t interesting?
What if I make terrible jokes that no one gets?
What if I’m too serious and dull?
What if I can’t find my “voice”?
What if I have nothing to say?
What if I’m not really creative?
What if this doesn’t work?
Now I see, those are all good questions but even better excuses. All wise thoughts that free me from ever typing a single word on the screen. And if I don’t write, then no one will expect anything from me. And if no one expects anything from me, then I can’t let them down.
Doing nothing is a brilliant way to stay safe from the possibility of failing.
When we’re scared of failing, we’ll spend our entire lives tweaking.
You see, I’d like for you think I know what I’m doing. But I don’t. And I think that’s ok.
Bottom line is – I’m tired of playing it safe. Safety is overrated and failure is underrated. For me, even if this doesn’t “work”, I’m fine with that. Even if my mom is my only reader, I still win. Why? Because I’m doing something that matters to me. I’m taking another step in my journey. And every word I capture here is a victory.
I decided to make this my first post, because I think you are like me. You have something you need to do or a passion that’s been dormant for too long.
A book. A song. An album. An adoption. A marathon. A gift. A ministry. A move. A really, big decision.
You might have some great reasons for not moving forward with those things. However, I’m gonna guess this is because you’re smart enough, wise enough, and rational enough to know everything that could go wrong. Of course, it could all blow up. It could all go south in a raging fury. But even if it does… what did you really lose? The win is not that your idea worked. The win is that you weren’t afraid to fail.
So, I’m hoping that if I can do my thing you can feel free to do your thing. Deal??
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.”
– 2 Timothy 1:7
Are there passions or things you want to do but are scared to do?
What’s your biggest hurdle?
What’s stopping you from taking the next step?
Don’t be shy. Let’s talk. Leave a comment.